“I lied and said I was busy.I was busy;but not in a way most people understand.I was busy taking deeper breaths.I was busy silencing irrational thoughts.I was busy calming a racing heart.I was busy telling myself I am okay.Sometimes, this is my busy -and I will not apologize for it.”

“There is simply no problem of life; it is absolutely purposeless play; it doesn’t have to continue; there is no reason whatever to explain it, for explanations are just another form of complexity, a new manifestation of life on top of life, gestures gesturing. If there is any problem at all it is to find out how people come to think there is a problem, whatever made them imagine that life is serious. Basically there is the gesture. Time, space, multiplicity are all complications of it. Pain and suffering are very far-out forms of play, and there just isn’t anything at all to be afraid of. There isn’t any ego. The ego is a kind of flip, knowing that you know — like being afraid of being afraid. It’s a curlicue, an extra jazz to things, a sort of double take or reverberation, a dithering of consciousness which is the same as anxiety.”

“And yet, now that years have passed, I recall it and wonder that it could distress me so much. It will be the same thing, too, with this trouble. Time will go by and I shall not mind about this either.”

“Alarm clocks unset, their tauntssilent. Crystals flashing dire red,as if to warn of seconds thatdwell, of years that fleet.”

“We spend a huge chunk of our lives worrying about whether or not we will eventually get the person and/or the things we need or want. Once we get them, we spend the rest of our lives worrying about whether or not we will eventually lose them.”

“Sometimes we have to fall apart to see the pieces”

“Goals and plans are fine, and they can often be effective motivators, but success promises something it can’t deliver. As soon as you reach your goal, success creates a new one, which creates new anxieties and stresses.”

“A lack of narrative structure, as you know, will cause anxiety.”

“Fear is felt by writers at every level. Anxiety accompanies the first word they put on paper and the last.”

“Shouldn’t we be trying to change the things that are making us anxious instead of trying to learn how to cope?”

“While writing is like a joyful release, editing is a prison where the bars are my former intentions and the abusive warden my own neuroticism.”